I have thought about writing it permanently on my wrist.
Maybe in red.
“Don’t forget this moment.”
It’s never the pretty ones I want to remember, those always get a photograph.
It’s the ones where my blood is boiling.
The ones where I am on the verge of a scream.
The ones where there is oatmeal all over the floor and someone’s feelings are hurt.
THIS TIME.
Do it differently.
Remember THIS time.
I am too full of mistakes to let half my life go.
We are born a pile of broken bones.
It takes a lifetime to pick them up and stitch their brittleness back together.
Threading them with the acceptance we are not perfect.
I am grateful for the thick resilience of skin.
The way is stretches, morphs, and glistens.
I have to have faith it all counts.
The sleeplessness, the wet beds, the ugly parenting.
The disagreements, the unruly mess, the snarly hair.
These parts of me are beautiful too.
I am trying to allow myself to feel the broken so I can devour the heal.
Know that there will come a time I will do it differently.
A time when I listen only to the small chirping of my heart.
{honored to have this photo and writing be a part of
- a coming together of women artists' imagery and voice. follow the link for other writings and photos on 'time'}